1) Last kiss - Christmas eve 2011
2) Last phone call - @bryon-fayne
3) Last text - @nguyenxmary
4) Last song listened to - Meant To Be x Melissa Polinar (unplugged)
5) Last time I cried - Sometime in March, like 2 weeks ago
Have you ever
6) Dated someone twice - yeah
7) Been cheated on - no
8) Kissed someone & regretted it - yeah
9) Lost someone special - yeah
10)Been depressed - yeah
11) Been drunk & almost threw up - nope
This year have you
15) Made a new friend - yeah
17) Laughed til you cried - yeah
18) Met someone who changed you - no
19) Found out who your true friends were - I found out a long time ago so
20) Found out someone was talking about you - yeah
26) What did you do for your last birthday - nothing. I watched my little brother and sister the actual day of my birthday.
27) What time I wake up today - 10:27am
29) Something I cannot wait for - After Earth with Jaden & Will Smith OUUUWEEE.
30) I’ve never seen all MY siblings together. My moms kids Christmas 2012. My dads kids all together like August 2012.
31) One thing you could change about your life - Money issues. Help my mom get a better paying job, something she’d like to do.
32) What are you listening to right now - Meant To Be x Melissa Polinar (unplugged)
34) Who’s getting on my nerves right now - omfg my little brother. holy fucking shit
35) Most visited website - Tumblr
36) Favorite color - Black, maybe blue or red
37) Nicknames - The only nickname I’ve really ever gotten is Paul………. lol no
38) Single, but I like someone
39) Cancer
40) Female……. lol wtf
41) Primary school - Shanahan Middle School
42) Secondary school - Olentangy High School
43) High school/College - ^^^^^^^^^^^^ I can’t go to college yet
44) Eye color - Brown
46) Height - 5’5
47) Any crushes? Yeah
48) What do I like about myself - Nothing really. I’m fascinated by all my beauty marks and scars though.
49) Piercings - I have my lip, nose, septum, and both my nipples. I had my tongue, but i took it out. I’ll probably repierce it when I feel like it though.
50) Tattoos - None, but I’m wanting
51) I’m a righty, but in certain things, I’m ambidextrous
Firsts
53) First Piercing - My lip
54) First best friend - My god sister was my very first best friend
55) First hookup - I’ve never hooked up or dated… lol
56) First bestfriend - really LOL lol omg
Right now
59) Eating - Nothing
60) Drinking - Water
61) I’m about to - workout
62) Listening to - I’m like listening to one of these “Shocking Stories”
63) Waiting for - Nothing really
Future
64) Want kids - yeah
65) Get married - Of course
66) Career - i don’t know yet
Which is better
67) Eyes or Lips - lips
68) Hugs or kissed - Hugs
69) Taller or shorter - Taller
70) Older or younger - Older
71) Romantic or spontaneous - spontaneous
72) Nice stomach or arms - doesnt really matter idk
73) Sensitive or loud - Sensitive
74) Hook-up or relationship - Relationship lol wtf
Have you ever
76) Kissed a stranger - no
77) Drank hard liquor - yeah
78) Lost glasses/contacts - no
79) Had sex - no
80) Broken someone’s heart - idk
82) Been arrested - no
83) Turned someone down - yeah
84) Cried when someone died - no
85) Fallen for a friend - yeah
Do you believe in
86) Yourself - not really
87) Miracles - no
88) Love at first sight - it’s possible I guess, but no
89) Heaven - no
90) Santa Clause - no
91) Kiss on the first date - on the cheek maybe
92) Angels - no
93) How would you label yourself - There’s a lot of things I would lable myself as
94) Someone You Pray Everyday For - I lost a lot of my religion. I don’t pray much anymore
95) Did you sing today - yeah
96) Who From All Your Ex’s have You Cared The Most About - @jordanxnguyenn
97) If you could go back in time, how far would you go - probably the day I could actually start remembering
98) Out Of Everything In The World What Do You Wish For - love, hope. things i dont believe in
99) Are you afraid of falling in love - kinda
100) Do you like the way you look - no
I always had the idea of suicide. I always hated the world and how everything is based on this and that. It’s so much to take in and I don’t like dealing with it. I hate seeing people die, get old, suffer etc. But I’ve learned that it’s all part of life. People are crazy. Everything is unfair. Learn the hard way and you’ll get something out of it.
I’ve always felt sad and hateful towards everything. Just loads of reasons why.
So for me, suicide was an option but I figured I still have a reason to live and I have many years ahead of me to accomplish something that’ll affect the lives of many.
No one ever thinks of me for thinking this. But I do and no one really knows my whole life story. Family, friends, etc. No one.
Eh, maybe someone will find out.
(Source: bwandonxvcastillo)
